Dont grow weary in well doing

Greetings to all brethren,
I pray as I write today's message, those who are going through will be encouraged. Have you ever felt like you want to stop doing the work of the Lord for whatever your reason may be? I feel like that sometime. This walk is personal and along the way there is always that one who just don't get it or understand what this journey is all about. In my last post, it was about what does the African American church do for there own. It was blown out of proportion and became another's problem. I work hard to stay saved and clean and sober not just saying this but living this way. It's not just on Sunday, it is 7 days a week. I am not out willingly committing sin, taking advantage of the grace given from GOD.
R & R Missionary Outreach has become bigger than me. It can be mind blowing for God is in the mix. I not only spread the gospel, but I do family services and I don't get paid for this the way the average person believes I should, so when folks come at me crazy sometime I want to go there. I'm not looking for no pats on the back, God does take care of me. I do expect the saints of God to grow from milk to meat so they can do what God has for THEM we all a body part each has a work, I am strict on those who work with me for integrity is important. Sometimes that is hard for not everyone is sold out to God/Jesus, not everyone is serious about Kingdom building. This is my life. I do ministry full time and when folks want to argue and trip I will leave you right there on the trip. Yet I don't think they realize I am human and I have a breaking point like all humans for I too am human. Sometime I want to slap folks into reality that this ain't no joke. I have feeling like others, but don't get mad at me for doing what I AM called to do. I came from some stuff just like others and believe me my greatest task was with fake church folks. The ones who want to say there saved and yet they love who they want. I was wounded from the church and even had experiences in the house of the Lord where folks criticized my praise and when my mom who I fought to get to church over hears these saints talking about me and she walks out of the church crying and hurt, you better believe don't go weary in well doing arises in my spirit and so does my flesh of wanting to whip some butt, yet my goal is to win my mom and others. So when you respond to my post make sure your ready for truth because this is personal and just like I fought real good in the world I've doubled that for the spirit, I am a true women of God and I earned it for it took me almost my whole life and has cost me a great deal of losses. If you get mad at the post ask yourself why? If it isn't about you then it shouldn't make you mad. If it is and you say iron sharpens iron then examine your heart. CHANGE, PROCESS is a part of Salvation. Can we just be about Our Fathers Business as Jesus did? I have my work cut out for me for I don't want to be a usher, or a deaconess or even sit in the house of the Lord. I was called into the vineyard and that is where I see the fruit. If I claim to be a leader and lives are not being changed something is wrong so I say every dry bone that comes around me has to get up and live again. There is power in being a child of the most High GOD, there are benefits and its not always about money here on earth, but heavenly riches the best money you can get. So to those of you who feeling like giving up don't. FIGHT back and remember people are not your enemies there just vessels who get pimped by the devil. I still say there is good in the hood. and I am down with it. God Help America get it right and Please strengthen the body of Christ, keep me in your prayers for I to go through and not ashamed to say sometime I want to go off. LOL.....but I still got JOY