Change

In the beginning it all started out like fun, I mean really seemed like there was no harm done. Until one day I found that I couldn't stop what I was feeling, some where deep down inside me it kept growing and growing causing other things to manifest. You may ask what is it? It is pain, pain from loving folks who don't love you. Pain from doing the best you can to live a righteous life and your so called friends turn there back on you. Even some family couldn't except the change, hmm want to talk about painful, OUCH! that really did hurt. But then as I sought a way to deal with the feeling of rejection, I came to realize NO CROSS NO CROWN! It wasn't until I really understood that I no longer live but Christ in me and because of that my life it not my own. Change is deeper then the metamorphosis of a Caterpillar. It is deeper then putting on clean clothes, and showering. Change is deeper then move from one end of town to another. Change is within, and change hurts. For you have to let go of old thoughts, old behaviors, old friends, even so old family and that itself can be painful. Nevertheless scripture says Be strong and of good courage, did you know it takes courage to change? I know I can go on with this but, to change into your GOD given purpose will sometime be painful, but in the end you will be grateful. LORD I am grateful for you did it, you already knew I cease from old behavior, putting on the NEW MAN. I can say this before you can put on the new you got to be rid of the old, and in that a transformation can take place to a deeper sense, a deeper need to be just like JESUS. ARE YOU WILLING TO SUFFER JUST FOR A LITTLE WHILE? ARE YOU WILLING TO STEP OUT IN COURAGE? I love what change is bringing to me, blessings to you all.

                   Apostle Suprina Ford in another season for greatness

I've decided to go all the way

I've decided to go all the way. As I sit in my home and meditate upon the goodness of the LORD the GOD of relationships I find myself in tears. Nobody can get the glory for my life, there was nobody there for me. Oh yeah my mom she tried, it didn't work. My  children tried it still didn't work. I intervention after another but none of this worked. It wasn't until I excepted I was powerless over darkness and there what a power great than where I was. Yes I met Jesus, He spoke to me with true love and compassion. Understanding my pain, my suffering, my anger, my resentments shoot this list could go on for I was a wretched wreck. O but then GRACE came and swept me off my feet and I began to except that I needed some help. It was then during my time of help that life started to look like it was worth living. You know when were on drugs, living a fast life the god of this world has you blind but now look at me I can see. Jesus you are my hero, that's why I decided to go all the way. Nothing could be worse than what I've lived, hmm I don't know about anyone or there circumstance but I surely can tell my. GOD GET'S THE GLORY FOR MY LIFE, GOD I AM GRATEFUL HALLELUJAH, I GIVE YOU WHAT IS DUE YOUR NAME THANK YOU FOR GIVING BACK MY LIFE, NO THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME LIFE. If you are someone who feels like you can't go on I suggest you look at me the young women they said would never make it and guess what I've GONE ALL THE WAY. I have so much to be grateful for, I cry guys and girls I shed tears because I don't want to let my FATHER DOWN my HEAVENLY FATHER, I wan't to be the best I can in this robe of flesh and I believe GOD is going to allow me to be. I send blessing to everyone just go all the way. No matter what GOD is going to get the glory with or without you, so you mine as well go all the way with JESUS.